I just read this quote in a fic based on Star Trek & House of Leaves, and it's got this: "Passion has little to do with euphoria and everything to do with patience. It is not about feeling good. It is about endurance. Like patience, passion comes from the same Latin root: pati. It does not mean to flow with exuberance. It means to suffer."
Ad I think that's what I'm getting at, somewhat. The roots of suffering, the roots of [their] passion, the roots of their personalities and assumptions and needs-- all of that. Why do they need each other? What is it *really* that they see? Who, ultimately, have they become? Stuff like that. Like, this desire for revelation of feeling/self through the lens of, at least partly, suffering. Because I can't see H/D that doesn't involve some growing pains (and suffering), and even if the fic doesn't, canon's already got it, y'know. There's all this pain and suffering and past... issues, right, and I don't necessarily want it/them to feel better. And I *certainly* don't want it magically transformed into 'oh, so Harry's a Veela who claims Draco and it's ok now'. But more canon details won't help with that either, will it? Because canon itself failed me on answering deeper issues with both these characters. Something major has to shift, has to be blown open. I don't even know what anymore. But what does this feeling [between them] mean? I mean, without even lust/love entering into it. You can't write entirely rationally about this, or entirely from the outside, where the portraits/Aurors/staircases are. Of course (this was my mistake early on), neither can you write it entirely from the inside. I guess, it's just, I'd like some perfect balance, but if I had to *choose*, I'd want that focus on the relationship logistics and how the passion... um, functions. ^^;; But like, in the context of the real world, right, haha. IDEK. >___>;
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Date: 2009-12-31 06:10 am (UTC)Ad I think that's what I'm getting at, somewhat. The roots of suffering, the roots of [their] passion, the roots of their personalities and assumptions and needs-- all of that. Why do they need each other? What is it *really* that they see? Who, ultimately, have they become? Stuff like that. Like, this desire for revelation of feeling/self through the lens of, at least partly, suffering. Because I can't see H/D that doesn't involve some growing pains (and suffering), and even if the fic doesn't, canon's already got it, y'know. There's all this pain and suffering and past... issues, right, and I don't necessarily want it/them to feel better. And I *certainly* don't want it magically transformed into 'oh, so Harry's a Veela who claims Draco and it's ok now'. But more canon details won't help with that either, will it? Because canon itself failed me on answering deeper issues with both these characters. Something major has to shift, has to be blown open. I don't even know what anymore. But what does this feeling [between them] mean? I mean, without even lust/love entering into it. You can't write entirely rationally about this, or entirely from the outside, where the portraits/Aurors/staircases are. Of course (this was my mistake early on), neither can you write it entirely from the inside. I guess, it's just, I'd like some perfect balance, but if I had to *choose*, I'd want that focus on the relationship logistics and how the passion... um, functions. ^^;; But like, in the context of the real world, right, haha. IDEK. >___>;